Throwing in the towel

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Okay, I'm not really going to quit.

(After all, an active overweight person is healthier than an inactive thin person, and blah, blah, blah...)

But I sure feel like it.

I'm starting to remember why I've never been successful on any of my weight loss endeavors.

Because THEY DON'T WORK!!!

Exercise is eating up all the time I'd rather be doing other things. Like watching the long list of movies I'm dying to see before residency starts. It's eating away time for naps, and books, and photo albums, and walks with my kids. I feel better when I exercise. I feel better about myself. I have more energy. But less free time in which to use that energy.

Dieting is turning me into a guilt ridden monster. I can't take my two year old out to lunch and share a hot dog without thinking about how much the scale is going to make me regret it later. A six year old sharing jellybeans with me shouldn't make me feel like a bad person.

But the complete lack of new weight loss means I'm doing something wrong.

And I DO NOT want to hear the words of encouragement that everyone tries. "Oh, you're just gaining muscle, which you know weighs more than fat." Well thanks. Thanks a lot.

Sorry you had to hear all that.

I just needed to vent. And now, I'm going to go have some meaningful time with some carrot sticks.

2 comments:

Karen said...

Instead of carrot sticks, it sounds like you could really use some chocolate.

Have you ever heard of the Diet Coke cake? Take a boxed cake mix (my preference is the chocolate Devil's Food) and make sure it does NOT have pudding in the mix, add 1 12-oz can of Diet Coke and bake it. That's it. Don't use oil, eggs, etc. Just the dry mix and the diet Coke. Then I top it with cool whip. You won't believe how yummy it is.

Katherine said...

Are you kidding me?! That sounds great. I'm going to make it ASAP!